The Tate galleries have been given a private collection of modern art that includes works by David Hockney, Lucian Freud and Jacob Epstein.
Although he did not place a value on the works, Tate director Sir Nicholas Serota said the gift "greatly enriched the national collection of art".
The nine works have been donated by Austria-based philanthropists Mercedes and Ian Stoutzker.
This piece by Ron Mueck, gives me the feeling of vulnerability, yet there is something also cosy and secure, either way i like this for the pose rather than the modelling.
Australian-born, London-based artist Ron Mueck began his career as a
model maker and puppeteer for children’s television – working with creator of
the Muppets Jim Henson on shows such as Sesame Street, and on films including
Labyrinth. Mueck first made his name as an acclaimed artist when his work was
included in the Royal Academy’s 1997 Sensation exhibition alongside works by
Young British Artists such as Damien Hirst, Tracey Emin and Jake & Dinos
Chapman. Since then, Mueck’s works have been exhibited across the world,
captivating the public wherever they have been shown.
Monday: Its still roasting, I can't handle heat... gggrrrr a few point regarding my thoughts today
I am lead to believe for the next few weeks we will be preparing the studio for the exhibition, i am excited about this as it means i get to see my work in gallery setting..
I am unlikely to stay the full day today as my dog is home alone, i hate leaving her alone.
I believe we also have to compile a write up, once the exhibition is open.. wish it could be brought forward...
Friday update. I spent the morning making six canvases for 6 of my precious fragments. I then attached the precious fragments to the canvases with cotton. wow they look lovely, fragile yet bold. Have to admit making the canvases was difficult, I actually made 12 because the 1st 6 were not up to scratch, the corners were not right, thankfully Karl and Howard showed me how to make these.
The sun is still shining and I am still not impressed with the heat,,, gggrrr, moods OK though thank goodness
Sorry I have had a
hideous few days.... Black dog came calling with his friend Penelope
Paranoia... Today I feel OK and looking forward to rounding up this project...
thankful things did not get disturbed too much with my downer... however the
routine normally means it up up from now on for a while..
It could have been a
lot worse and it could have put an end to the project.. that is the worse thing
about BP, you never can predict your mood or how extreme they will be.. Spoke
with my CPN(community psychiatric nurse) and expressed my concerns over my
rapid cycling of moods, I also explained my psychologist, felt my moods were
more BP related and not emotional, ie chemical not situational. So hopefully
once this course is finished I can have a medication review and find something
more suitable. I do not want to loss my creative highs, but at the same time i
need to avoid the lows.
I mentioned previously that
being BP means learning to say sorry, it also means having to re invent
yourself again and again .Ie in my adult life i have made drastic changes to my
life to fit back in to society after serious bout of server depression. ie
change of career path( current route) location, relationship etc.. it sucks
looking back...
PS its 4am( a sign of raised
mood being up and about at this time)(update and to highlight the point, its
now 6am, dog worked, housework done, evening meal planned and this blog done,
in contrast to Wednesday, when i slept most of it and cried a lot and only went
out with my partner) but today is also dam hot,
summer suck, i have a
huge dislike for them, i mean it brings out all the dick heads, ppl get louder,
have little respect for others, scream, row, walk round semi naked, drink in
the street and in general treat their neighbourhood as a holiday camp. I hate
it... another negative to summer is being on lithium, it dehydrates you
normally, but with summer you sweat and have to be very care not to get
seriously dehydrated
love this tune...... makes me
want to shuffle my feet... and the lyric remind me of high times
This will be the first Tuesday since I started the FMP that I have not gone into the studio. useless information there sorry.
The reason i'm not going in is because, i am now at the cleaning up stage and starting another project at this late stage would mean an unlikely finished piece
So, no blood letting either today... so it is officially a Lee day if only the sun would hide a little more and make today a prefect day
I have become a master at pretending that I am ok. I
have become very good at hiding the way I feel from other people. I like this.... Its my Mask.. sometimes the mask doesn't fit so well though. but i am getting better at it.
Well I figured I should explain were I am at with my FMP.
Plaster Profile boxes: Done, look great and certainly fragile. I have 8 in total
Box Profile type 1: I have 2, look good on a plinth on an angle.
Large Eggs, contained in card: I have 12. look fucking great and they scream out fragile
Humpty: 3 in total. 1 great, one cool n broken,( but it works)and 1 that looks more like a peanut M&M
Quote Balls: I have around 4 of these,, I like them.
Fragile fragments : 6 stings of these, various sizes n shapes.. look amazing.
Broken/repair: Egg: 1 but it so beautiful.
Music: scary manic mixed up mess, love it
Video: Fast, rapid. provocative, raw,
Sketch book done, but Mr premature here, finished the final bit of binding, without Karls assistance so it could end up falling a part knowing me.
Now concerned about my blog, Is it want is required? is it too personal, Is there enough detail. I have treated this as a dairy not just for my art but my moods, well to an extent, but that is what my project is about my fragile world.
Quick update, spent the morning, binding my sketch book.... I'll be honest I have a heap of pride in it, Karl helped a lot and guided...
CBT discussed my anger and depression, My psychologist, said he noticed my cycling moods and said he felt, that my moods were chemically related.. back to the drawing board with the meds, but i am waiting till i finish this course before i mess with that..
Wednesday, May 16, 2012
I managed to do a few me quote ball/balloon things to day, bizarre thing happened to 2 of them, they came out the same texture as an Areo,,, after all that experiment I did at the begining of this FMP, all I need to do was shake it a lot in a balloon. Spoke with Howard he agree the balls were a little disco like with the blue light, so may look at finding bright white or yellow lights for them.
Did not stay the full day in college, I was getting annoyed at silly things, it is best I hide in situations like that I think. I will be discussing anger a lot tomorrow in my CBT, i feel like that guy out of Falling Down..
Yesterday my work received a lot of ohhhs and ahhhs. I'll be honest. I hate it, not the work( well i did not before the ohhs n ahhhs started) I hate that silly recognition thing people do....
I do not do the majority of my art to please others, my work is not about something being pulchritudinous, Its about me, my feels, my hopes my ideas, if people do not like it, that's OK, i do not expect people to like me in real life why would i expect them to like my art..
So now looking back the glowing ball was inspired a great deal I guess byFranc Grom, Egg shell art...
his work, is so fragile and beautiful, i do not feel I achieved this, what i feel i achieve is a disco ball. I am being hard sorry, the text plays a huge part, so I guess I still find it appealing, it still raises questions, if people are willing to look for them... Howard and Liz liked it, but i may speak with howard further to raise my concerns.. god you know what tomorrow i could love it....
Spent the day working on the plaster and balloons, Karl assisted me removing the balloons from the plaster, but other than that I was alone all day in the plaster room.
I managed to do around 4 intake yet cracked balloons and left 4 drying, so I did well. the issue I now see is the card I use has plaster on it and looks grubby. So I have to think of a way of taking a viewers eye away from that, or cover it some how, but I do like the vulnerable nature of them.. I am hoping the next few days I can focus more on presentation.
Moods still slipping down, It has been for a few days now. if I am honest, it is the reason I am kind of wanting to complete this task. I do not want to give up at this stage, but if I get too down, I know I will have bed days and hide from this tiny ugly world, which could set me back. I am aware, I have plenty of materiel for the exhibition, but I want to make sure, I have the right material. Anyway I spent some time with student support today because of my mood... Did not help lift my mood, but helped me hold back on some of my thoughts before actions so to speak.
I also got my report from college regarding being dyspraxic, this is for my funding for uni. but god it makes me look a bit dim.( I should note, it not the report that makes me look dim, its my results).. which I know I am not great at English etc, in fact anyone one reading this will see from my spelling etc.
This song some up my feelings today, I am not down regarding my work, its me, its everything, its nothing... .
Friday was a productive day,, Huclite was delivered, got more balloons. and made another 4 fragile inked fragments... I am going into the studio Tuesday, hopeful it will be quite and i can get a few balloons done, whilst there are no other students knocking about.
My point that life is fragile is making its point all too clear this week, No, I am not down. No, I am not high, nor am I psychotic. I believe I am stable. But I got some SHITTY news.
You see my Nan(grandmother) is my rock, she is the only one that helps me from my family, she brought me up when my mother was too ill to cope with me. She listen to my pains with life and save judgement till the waters are calm..She is can be cutting, yet is always fair.
She is 86years old going on 20. Thursday she informed me she has cancer. Its eye cancer, I know, who gets eye cancer? But from what doctor google has told me it is easily treatable... Although my nan has started giving her saving to her grand children. this hurts, she has little money and I can not understand why, well I can, but I do not want to think a long them lines, but it another hammer to an already fragile world that surrounds me...she a fighter though...
Egg Shell Art
70-year old Slovenian craftsman:Franc Grom,displays one of his special
Easter eggshells drilled with more than 20,000 holes . NOW THAT'S FRAGILE
Another day, where my FMP has kind been at at stand still, i realise, i put more hours in and that i am a head of the game with my idea and plans, but this morning it was getting to much...
Howard and Karl pulled out all the stops and searched the country for Hurclite, even going and looking for funding to buy the plaster, I am indebted to them, both balloons n plaster should be in the studio Friday,, YA DANCER..
Yesterday Karl suggested I, look at using the broken plaster eggs shells, I experiment with drawing on them, and then using graphite and sketching in to the shell. almost like cave drawings, as I tried to keep it simple and with minimal lines
Later Caroline came up with a suggestion. using quid ink? on the plaster, which I did, then after I used bleach to mark the plaster, it look great, like old Greek ceramics. I then, drilled holes in to the fragile fragments and sewed them together, this alone made my day, it was not wasted and this idea has so much mileage, and look at how fragile it is....
GGGGGGRRRRRRR normal plaster is to weak n brittle to staying in any reasonable shape of the eggs, i need huclite 2 plaster, but its again is proving difficult to source... watch this space...
other events, looking in to mounting a Mac computer in to a wall, then on the out side have an egg shaped booth, so people who watch my video are submerged in it... i love that idea, welcome into my head... my mind the movie...
Quick update, spent the morning, binding my sketch book.... I'll be honest I have a heap of pride in it, Karl helped a lot and guided...
Yesterday Karl suggested I, look at using the broken plaster eggs shells, I experiment with drawing on them, and then using graphite and sketching in to the shell. almost like cave drawings, as I tried to keep it simple and with minimal lines 
GGGGGGRRRRRRR normal plaster is to weak n brittle to staying in any reasonable shape of the eggs, i need huclite 2 plaster, but its again is proving difficult to source... watch this space...
