Something Eggy

Ok I mentioned to my partner, that was was mulling over the fact I could use Humpy( better than eggman,  as Suzette calls him I also like egg mania) in my final. For example, having a video of him falling from  my plinth and smashing.....

Then Suzette posted a picture on face Book,, Stating she did not want to see him smashed.. I few people responded to this with comments..

This got me thinking... What if i did set up a petition to save him... and dependant on comments etc, I could make a stunt double and use him in the piece of video... I mean, it would highlight the fact that our moods are shaped and shifted by other peoples around us and their reactions to us...

 The chances are I will not even us him in my final, but it is something that I am mulling over on my daily walks with my dog..

In other news, I see my psychiatrist to day, This in my book is never a joyous day, in fact this time I am really dreading. I feel a little down today not a lot, but enough in my book to start looking at ways to avoid a downward spiral.( but serious what do you expect when people swap and change my meds every couple of day)  However my partner and my Social Worker, will be more concerned about my recent Highs... which means I will have to be quite firm with my answers to his questions, seriously the whole see you doctor ever 2 months and discuss your moods Just does not work with Bipolar.... I change.. in fact people moods change daily, mines just under a microscope however they do get extreme at times i agree..

The other concern is the dreaded being sectioned thing.. personally do not feel that is the case this time, but it is a serious concern never the less...  Yes yes this is relevant, its moods, which are fragile and today could change things in a different directions altogether, example new meds, Some make you a zombie, some make you shake, some makes you wide awake, and a lot make you eat like a horse. There is also the fact if i get a change of meds I have to go through the whole withdraw thing, which is never a pleasant experience.

So you can see, it could impact my life a lot... Oh I could see it as a half full glass and say I could get meds that level me out and world becomes a whole rosy looking place. Bull! after over a yr thinking that way, dealing with Bi polar is not a science, its a throw a cocktail of drugs at someone and see if any of them work...

And final now my little paranoia rant at Psychiatrists is over, with have family over from Texas, so lots of looking round quaint little Britain come up for the next few days... Although We went to Tescos last night and they loved looking at different produce, which if i am honest When Suzette goes home, Thats my highlight, walmark, dollar general etc... 

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