I m feeling more inclined to look at the subject fragility for my FMP..
Why? Well ok like I’ve mentioned before, I suffer from bi polar disorder, this has shrunk my world, my everyday life is lived by the minute, long term plans are planned not just by me, but by my partner, CPNs, family etc. This is to eliminates any rash decision etc. I am also governed by medication, if I miss a dose I can become ill.
So want do I mean by ill, well there are two polar opposites to my condition. This is my view and every person with bi polar is different.
1/ Mania/manic episodes. Spend every penny I have/ or don’t have on gifts or things that are not usually needed by me. Worse than them is investing in businesses. Promiscuous behaviour , inappropriate comments. Racing thoughts run by me by the millisecond, thoughts of grandeur. I need no sleep , The higher I get the more disillusioned I become to the point of illuminations and paranoia.
Then the Crash.
2/ Depression, self-harm, planned suicides, destroy my relationships. Sleep 24/7.
My medication keeps both these in a box, I do get a little high and a little depressed but its more managed on medication… I also have to avoid certain social situation and other triggers.
So you see my life is on a edge 24 hours a day, 7days a week 365 days a year. A balancing act, It is fragile, vulnerable . Yet to strangers, distant friends I appear normal, strong health etc. it’s like people who suffer depression put a faces of happiness on when really they are down…
Frigile and vulnerable are more fitting more appropriate terminology than say bi polar for my project.. If I chose bi polar, it becomes medical.
I want to explore emotions, life etc. There is some many things in life that are fragile, lets be honest the world we live in is…
So I have been exploring other artist that look at the subject of fragile
Testa Addormentata, an oversized, bandaged head.
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