MADE ME SMILE

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forgetful Mondays

Monday are to me a little hectic... I have the worst memory, i am so forgetful, so Mondays tend to be a morning of running round ensuring i have the right dates and times of the following weeks appointments. I not sure if its med related, but it is listed as a lithium side effect..

I had intended to use the fragile paster profiles as a plinth, the more I look at them the more I feel they would look good built into a walk.. this means I am back to the drawing board for the plinth idea...

it also raised a question, do I put something inside the silhouette, like a face on face, but one that is polished and neat in contrast to the rough and fragile silhouette.

 I experimented with a few ideas, one was heating perspex and moulding over a cast of my face, it worked, it has mileage, but to me it does not fit with my idea of fragility

The other idea I played with was wax and paper.... it looked ghastly, almost horror like... I huge fail I felt.. but I am not going to dismiss it as it could be made to work. 

Background imagines, FMP

OK, it been 3days of, I'll be honest trail n error with a number of video editing programmes,, most allowed me to create, only to crash at the last minute.. this is at present the best of the lot of them...although i am thinking using the Mac at college will fair better, plus i'd still like to film something breaking mixed into to it, as well as a sleazy film barely visible under the main image to represent hyper sexuality

fading memory's of Easter

OK, Its been a while since my last post... Since then i have made another egg man, for just in case proposes. I revisited The whit worth gallery again to look at 

Idris Khan’s new installation The Devil's Wall, which draws inspiration from rituals and practices of the Hajj, the pilgrimage to Mecca that is one of the pillars of Islam and is undertaken by millions of Muslims each year.
Here Khan exhibits three new sculptures and a series of drawings based on an aspect of Hajj ritual. Incorporating sculpture, literary texts, drawings and photography, Khan uses repeated actions and texts in his work to explore his own Islamic heritage, making The Devil’s Wall a pilgrimage of self-discovery that can have powerful resonances for viewers experiencing the installation. Highlights from the Whitworth’s collection, selected with Idris Khan, are also on display.http://www.whitworth.manchester.ac.uk/

I like it a lot... i don't think i would have if it was for my tutor explaining the idea of multiples and how it they form a language... It made me re visits it and look at it in a different light.

I also visited a bird of prey centre in Knutsford... Nothing to do with art, But i did take a lot of pictures and you can not help feel how fragile our world is when so many of these birds are in decline.

The many reason for so little updates over the last weeks is we had family over from the States, then my children came for 5 days, Anyway back on track I hope...

Paige Bradley

From the moment we are born,
the world tends to have a
container already built for us
to fit inside: A social security
number, a gender, a race,
a profession or an I.Q. I ponder
if we are more defined by the
container we are in, rather than
what we are inside. Would we
recognize ourselves if we could
expand beyond our bodies?
Would we still be able to exist
if we were authentically
'un-contained'?

Paige Bradley,

I have a deep respect For Paige Bradley's work,  She believes that
through the figure an artist could speak
a universal language that is timeless
and essential.

Something Eggy

Ok I mentioned to my partner, that was was mulling over the fact I could use Humpy( better than eggman,  as Suzette calls him I also like egg mania) in my final. For example, having a video of him falling from  my plinth and smashing.....

Then Suzette posted a picture on face Book,, Stating she did not want to see him smashed.. I few people responded to this with comments..

This got me thinking... What if i did set up a petition to save him... and dependant on comments etc, I could make a stunt double and use him in the piece of video... I mean, it would highlight the fact that our moods are shaped and shifted by other peoples around us and their reactions to us...

 The chances are I will not even us him in my final, but it is something that I am mulling over on my daily walks with my dog..

In other news, I see my psychiatrist to day, This in my book is never a joyous day, in fact this time I am really dreading. I feel a little down today not a lot, but enough in my book to start looking at ways to avoid a downward spiral.( but serious what do you expect when people swap and change my meds every couple of day)  However my partner and my Social Worker, will be more concerned about my recent Highs... which means I will have to be quite firm with my answers to his questions, seriously the whole see you doctor ever 2 months and discuss your moods Just does not work with Bipolar.... I change.. in fact people moods change daily, mines just under a microscope however they do get extreme at times i agree..

The other concern is the dreaded being sectioned thing.. personally do not feel that is the case this time, but it is a serious concern never the less...  Yes yes this is relevant, its moods, which are fragile and today could change things in a different directions altogether, example new meds, Some make you a zombie, some make you shake, some makes you wide awake, and a lot make you eat like a horse. There is also the fact if i get a change of meds I have to go through the whole withdraw thing, which is never a pleasant experience.

So you can see, it could impact my life a lot... Oh I could see it as a half full glass and say I could get meds that level me out and world becomes a whole rosy looking place. Bull! after over a yr thinking that way, dealing with Bi polar is not a science, its a throw a cocktail of drugs at someone and see if any of them work...

And final now my little paranoia rant at Psychiatrists is over, with have family over from Texas, so lots of looking round quaint little Britain come up for the next few days... Although We went to Tescos last night and they loved looking at different produce, which if i am honest When Suzette goes home, Thats my highlight, walmark, dollar general etc... 

today

How artists have been turned on by TV

Considering that i am hoping to add moving images and sound to my FMP, I thought this article was interesting 

As digital switchover nears completion, a new exhibition at the Institute of Contemporary Art (ICA) looks at the impact of TV upon contemporary culture.

How artists have been turned on by TV