messing around,

The Event....

I am so glad its over.. I am also glad it was a success for every one involved..

Was it a success for my protest??????????? i am not sure, its was a laugh to say the least..

Although I tried to think outside the box and protested the event, towards the latter stages of the unit, I began to feel isolated. And my whole aurgment that collaboration kills creativity showed flaws. For me a peer support group is paramount in my studio practice, As people started to get in to the spirit of their events I had to take a back seat even though I did contribute to group meeting etc, I had kind of cut myself off. If I was to do the whole thing again, having others with the same beliefs may have help and eliminated  that lone working that I had created for myself 

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honestly

• Today's the big day.
• Mood is rock bottom.
• Extra diazepam taken.(i hate take them)

This is were my grand out side the box thinking fails.... the idea of standing outside protesting unnerves me today.  Were as if i had collaborated with my fellow students some of this pressure would be lifted.. You have to laugh this is my second post advocating collaborative working. were as i should be setting examples that it doesn't work.

Two Plinths and Out

Tried to book two plinths out today. aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh... all booked up till after the end of the 3rd yrs final show.. however bright side booked the daylight room for Tuesday afternoon, so i can shot at least some descent pictures, not exactly my ideal but its a move forward guess.

Uni's been extra quiet as everyone is busy with unit x exhibitions, this is were my theory  that collaborations kills creativity fails i guess, having peers around to bounce ideas off and motivation is positively importantly to me, and i struggling now... oh well only a couple more days to go...

R two heads better than one?

Well its been an odd few days. i was full of self doubt about this whole project. Had tutorial and feel a bit better, its difficult to differentiate whether its genuine doubts or creepy anxiety, either way i feel i am trying my hardest to force a smile on my face lately, i know it will pass and life will be lovely again so, its just not at the morment.  

• Mentioned my plan to submit a piece under a pseudo name.i thinking submitting my baby heads to Mollys exhibition Madame Mosey's Cabinet of Curiosities
• discussed different waxes and techniques to using wax. and to make notes on the process as i move a long.
• Everyone Exhibitions are  starting to come together and one has even had their opening night. 
• It is my intentions to attend a few of these to show my support.

observation

i have noticed that the people who struggled working under their own stream in the last few units are now thriving doing unit x..... go figure,,,